For those of you who think I am without flaw or error...I kinda am, lol...your assumption has just been validated.

JOKING.

Seriously though...I have a problem, Houston...
This dilemma of mine has been racking my brain off & on for years and I have not been able to shake it, nor do I want to. Playing with this open flame will eventually get me burned in the worst possible way if I can't put the fire out, but I must say...my time is slowly fading, and my window of opportunity is closing -- almost unnoticeable.

And I'm a bit of a pyromaniac, btw...metaphorically and literally.

This has been off & on for about...10 years...picked up a lot more once I got to college, and now that we are graduated, the table has been set and dinner has been served...but something in my head keeps telling me not to pick up the utensils........................and it is annoying as hell.

You ever feel like making a move, but prior to...double-checking and making sure the time is right, and the time just never seems to be like the right time??

I'm not afraid of error. You learn from it...but in this case, I am terrified.

I'm so paranoid about fuckin it up. Aside from that, I'm my worst enemy, and my biggest critic. Has a lot to do with what's there for me to offer up. Measuring up to those around me. Competition (in my mind)...I feel I'm competing against everyone. It keeps me hungry...but it also forces me to have to constantly reevaluate my position........which leads to me questioning it in the first place, which leads to indecisiveness.

Ok, I have a confession.



But I will discuss that in the next post. Consider this like, the intro.

Enjoy the tunes.