Fork in the road.

As blessed as I am to be in my current situation, especially in comparison to where I was this time last year, I have no reason to complain. It's selfish of me to even have these unholy thoughts...But as long as I am here, I think I will continue to have this perfect storm of pinned up rage and frustration in my system. I can help it, it meaning my internalized pressure, but I hate feeling like I am working to pay someone else. I hate working "on the clock" so to speak. I don't want anyone telling me when to work and how to do it. I want ultimate independence in all aspects of my life (which could be the underlying reason as to why I am single) and I want to be an asset to my friends. Virginia is starting to take its toll on me. It's taxing my freedom and my anonymity...sometimes, you just wanna hang out where no one knows your name.

I guess you can say I'm a bit of a loner, to a certain point.
I like what I like, and I want what I want...when, is the question that continues to bounce around aimlessly against the walls in my head. I hate it.


But I love this song. Music keeps me sane.