Self-Loathing

Man I wish I had the time to express my disdain for my own folk. I don't even know where to start. But with all of the bullshit surrounding the collective lives of African-Americans, you'd think our time would be constructively consumed with empowering others, solution seeking and troubleshooting issues that continue to plagues our people...BEFORE I CONTINUE, im probably guilty too of having my priorities selfishly all over the place while my brothers-in-arms are gunned down in the street for less than nothing...so forgive me...and crazy enough, i think thats part of the reason why I dont indulge in typical negro activity. its not uppity. its just that. i desire perspective. i really wanna know how life is on the other side of the fence; to live in a world where worry is an anomaly...i hate sounding like the angry black guy, especially the angry black guy that continues to close my eyes and hope for a better tomorrow, but i cant help it. truth is, im guilty of having all of the answers and not dedicating the thought to any positive action. the solution is way bigger than any salary or education can provide...and it bothers me that in 2015 we continue to set ourselves back and allow the influence of defective outsiders (those that cannot relate to the black experience due to overwhelming ignorance and refuse to seek perspective) to force us to react instead of being proactive. good grief. its way too late for me to be tryna be so deep. my next post will focus more on amber rose twerk videos and upcoming sneaker release dates, promise.