Cheesy Mackin

Back like I never left. I have truly missed thee and I should be stoned for leaving you all in the dust. My mind was on 101 different things between now and last July... 358 days ago I was in a very dark place, kinda. To illustrate, I was tightroping across the James River during a hurricane, in the void of empty darkness, blindfolded, tryna find my way. It hasnt all been bad, but I realized later than sooner that I was surely being tested, wrestling with familiar demons, harboring a medicine ball of emotions...it was a delicate time for me. I couldnt move, like being buried alive; a prisoner in your own crib. Being questioned and judged for every move I made (or didnt make). You ever have a conversation with someone and they ask you how you're doing and you get choked up to answer, wishing you had stopped early on the yellow light instead of zipping through the intersection? everything is connected -- slow down at the yellow light, prolong your trip to the gas station, thusly avoiding you friend from middle school who's "well off" and subliminally judging your feeble life, saving you the embarrassment of having to answer the question. As difficult it was for me to breathe, I learned a lot about myself. What I could withstand...struggle has truly sharpened my logic and reasoning. I'd say for the best, although some of my habits have had a tendency to pop up like hives. I dont wanna share too much of my life in one big post, but rather use this as a springboard to discuss the different phases of my life over the past year...everything I have failed at, accomplished...the people Ive encountered, situations endured...my life isnt THAT entertaining, but I hope to paint you all a vivid picture of it anyway. I'll start from a year ago and I shall bring it back to the present, starting tomorrow. I had ZERO intent on blogging, period...let along at 12:30 in the morning...and I can't find my Zzzquil (not to be confused with Nyquil) so I'ma take this opportunity to once again, ask you, the reader, to forgive me for my disappearance and thanks for keepin it funky witcha boy. All I needed was a lil push to get this blog back up & running and bygolly I got it tonight from a most unlikely source at a most unlikely time (I was playing COD)...The best things and people tend to fall right in your lap when you least expect it to happen.